Had my ups and downs
Been lost then found

Seen lots of profound
Shit come back around

It sucks when you’re down
‘Cause you laugh like a clown

But you just want to die
Things are no longer right

And you’re up every night
Wipin’ tears from your eyes

Askin’ god for the light
‘Cause you just want a break n

Nothin’s really makin’
Sense anymore I’m shakin’

I’m gettin’ fed up of
Fuckin’ patiently waitin’

It’s ok Alex, just take a breath
You’ve got to make the most of oxygen until none’s left

No one cared when you were down so go and be your best
It’s not like you don’t walk around with heart out on ya chest

Yeah I dabbled with the drugs, got looked at as a thug
And you thought that I would do more than walk away after shrug?

You think that you can take my mood from me you little mug, pussy
You’re actin’ like an alpha but you’re screamin’ like a cub

My hands are fuckin’ blistered from the dirt that I have dug
I had to do the wirin’ before I could use the plug

So if you’re thinkin’ I was spoon fed think again I’ve seen the blood shed
And my family in agony from loosin’ all the love

Yeah my soul was torn apart, when I had to depart
Now I must set an example yeah, I’ve got to play the part

I’m sorry that I couldn’t give you this me from the start
But now I will give you everythin’ I say that from the heart

I lost everyone, I lost everythin’
But I’m just gettin’ on, I cannot change a thing

I noticed all at once, the love that I could bring
So I give you my best attempt when I get up and sing

The waitin’ game is tedious I’m tryna take it serious
But all I wanna do is run outside and be mischievous

I tried all of these drugs and now it’s makin’ me delirious
I’m livin’ outer body for lengthy extended periods

Had my ups and downs
Been lost then found

Seen lots of profound
Shit come back around

It sucks when you’re down
‘Cause you laugh like a clown

But you just want to die
Things are no longer right

And you’re up every night
Wipin’ tears from your eyes

Askin’ god for the light
‘Cause you just want a break n

Nothin’s really makin’
Sense anymore I’m shakin’

I’m gettin’ fed up of
Fuckin’ patiently waitin’

The reason why my head is killin’, people takin’ never givin’
All donate our energy away for free to make a livin’

People settle for the sufferin’ but act like they aren’t ill ‘n
They’ll just take another pill thinkin’ that’s the way to heal

But you just need a better diet ’cause you’re shit at makin’ meals
Aim to be organic n’ you’ll know when you are healed

You’ll tell by how it feels, it changes how you feel
I still think about it every time I’m layin’ still

Probably gettin’ baked then I’ll make another meal
Then another one or maybe not see how I feel

Up the trainin’ drill and then in came the skill
After loosin’ all my memory of what I learnt in school

Wanted to be popular but quickly looked a fool
I thought everyone at some point wanted to look cool

I guess when you nearly kill yourself it isn’t though, oh
And that’s when things got dull, so depressed and miserable

Alex? Alex wake up
Alex? No no no no don’t do this fucking wake up